Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Running for My Life!

I am happy to report that I am now officially a runner! I use that term very loosely, but I am a runner still. On my first run - about midway through (so like 2 minutes in) I heard emergency sirens. I thought surely I had died or passed out and they were coming for me. I seriously considered for a minute that I was having an "outer body experience." Much to my surprise...I was alive and well and running! I am taking it slow and working up to a goal of one full mile without stopping (baby steps). I already feel better and the best part - I don't hate it. I love the fact that I can secretly enjoy some Beastie Boys or Bon Jovi and no one even has to know (until I start singing "You Give Love A Bad Name" aloud while running down the road...then, the secret is kinda out). Being known as "the lady who sings 'the oldies' while running" by all of the neighborhood kids isn't such a bad thing is it???

Now, about the doctor. I did make the appointment and then I did cancel the appointment. We recently got some not great news about my husbands health - so I had to put my fertility issues aside for a bit. (Apparently, it is not always about me!) We are not sure yet of exactly what is going on. I will let you know when I know something...until then I am thinking happy thoughts!

I seriously don't know what I did to deserve to be infertile and to face the possibility of some really grim news all at the same time...but whatever it was - I am REALLY REALLY sorry!!

If it is true what they say...these situations only make us stronger...well then, I am going to be one really bad B%^&$ someday! Watch Out!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Spring Cleaning!

I love Spring! I love everything about it...well, maybe not the uncontrollable sneezing and the trail of tissues I seem to leave around the house, but other than that I freakin' love it! I love the weather! I love to see the flowers blooming, the trees coming back to life and I love to hear the sweet sounds of birds in the early morning (except for the family of birds who have apparently moved into my chimney and have their days and nights mixed up - those guys I am currently not loving!)! The point is...Spring time makes me happy!

I was thinking on our way home from a recent vacation that this is the perfect time for me to get things in gear! I am ready to take control of my health and most of all my fertility! Here is my plan:

1. Make a doctor's appointment. I am calling tomorrow! I have already okayed it with the hubby and he only had a small heart palpitation when I reminded him of the small $150 fee for the "consultation" - but he agreed it was time we get things going. (Note to future baby: For occasions such as when I am up all night worrying where you have been or when you bring home a bad grade - I think it only fair that we work out a "reimbursement program" or perhaps a wage garnishment to you know - to call it even!)

2. Make good on my whole "get healthy" plan. (Note to self - If for any reason in the near future you have any more great ideas - like oh...get healthy or....be a better person...you know change the world type stuff...well - keep it to yourself!)
Actually...I am really going to try on this one. My family has agreed to adopt "Meat Free Mondays" - and by agreed I mean I told them we were going to do this and I didn't allow for any comments or questions. And, since my current kid pretty much only eats chicken nuggets this should be a really GREAT experience! But - we will TRY it and see how it goes...I see a lot of cheese pizza and grilled cheese in our future!!
Also, I asked my husband to help me start a running program. (Apparently I was on drugs when I asked this - since normally I don't RUN unless, maybe I am being chased by a giant sasquacth - who is also armed...otherwise it would just be a fast "mall walk.") So, tonight we are going to start "running" maybe just to the mailbox and back...but it's a start.

3. Start Fresh! Today I got rid of all of my old baby stuff. I know, I know...kind of defeats the purpose of this whole thing...BUT - I decided that when I do have a baby - I DESERVE new stuff!! I am keeping the furniture - but everything else is going to the Yard Sale! It is 7 years old - so I figured out with the old and in with the new (and I am ONLY referring to the baby stuff here).

So that is my plan...will it work?? No idea, but I'll give it a go and see!!!!

I will do my best to update much more often, that is if i don't die during the whole running thing!!


(P.S. I have no idea how to spell sasquatch (and my spell check is giving me no suggestions) so - sorry! *_*)

Monday, April 5, 2010

Post Lent Post

Well, Lent is over and I survived. I managed. I was also faithful to my promise to stop asking and start thanking. For the last 40 or so days I did not ask God "why" I wasn't pregnant, I didn't by a pregnancy test (sorry EPT - I am sure sales were down), and I didn't complain about not being pregnant...but Lent is over so I am going to let it rip!!!!

Nahhh, I actually learned a lot about myself and my life over this last month and a half. I learned that I have a wonderful kid, and an amazing husband - an overall pretty fabulous life. I also learned that I know with out any doubt that I want another child.

Here is where we stand now...

Me - 32
Him - 42
Son - 7

One would think the math does not add up to start all over again. But, I know this is what we want for our family.

I am sure it will be hard to start all over again, but when is life ever really easy...especially where having kids is concerned.

Now, how do we get what we want??? Apparently not the way the rest of the world does it. I guess we will actually go back to square one...medically assisted reproduction. Awesome, this should be super fun. Well, maybe not...but it certainly makes for a more interesting Blog!

Stay Tuned!!!